Random thoughts in April

Why am I still in this toxic relationship? Maybe it’s easier to be unhappy than going through the misery of relationship termination. He once told me that when he didn’t want to be in a relationship anymore he would just start being a real ass hole so she would break it off between them; I don’t think he’s doing that to me. I think he’s just naturally selfish, uncaring and unreliable. Everyone deserves to be happy, even me.